Awful

Noooooo!
He was supposed to love me forever
and now he's got a girlfriend.
he's even happy
without me!

He was my back-up
argh...
i refuse to believe it.

I suppose that's how he felt
when i told him
i had a boyfriend...
(cuz i was supposed to love him forever)
(and i didn't)
(and he didn't)

It wasn't over
i guess now it is
over.

sometimes
i still dream about him
and i wake up with this beautiful
memories
that will last
for so long
ssssssooooooo loooong!!

years
YEARS
and i'm still feeling this
fucked-up things
FUCKED-UP

i am so mad, so angry and so worried
i'm now with somebody else
and i'm not supposed to be worried
to feel a thing
to think about it
him
him
him
him
him
him
him
him
him

i'm not going to think about him
i'm not going to think about him
i'm not going to dream about him
(yeah, right.)

i cannot believe it.
that bitch's name's ridiculous
he's happy!!!
HE WAS SUPPOSED TO FUCKING LOVE ME FOREVER

it so does not makes me happy
that he's happy

i want to see him
i can't wait to hug him

(i just hope i can kiss him for one last time
one last
awful
kiss)